This year began the greatest

i had :

Great friends
Great family
Future prospects
Good days
1 or 2 bad days

This year is coming to an end really badly. First of all o have a new circle of friends which isn't a bad thing at all they are the greatest friends i could ask for. Without them i don't know where i would be, definatley not this far anyway.

Just lately i have had a spell od bad luck, My best friend who i cared about most in the world betrayed me. Now this is going to sound silly but this started over one boy. One boy that probably isn't worth all this trouble but at the time he meant somethign to me. I wasn't dating him but i liked him and thought we were close and got on well until... one day it hits me.

MY BEST FRIEND AND THE BOY SHE KNEW I LIKED WERE KISSING!!!

That day part of me broke why would she want to hurt me like this, at that time it didnt cross my mind that they genuinely liked each other. All i was thinking is how could she? why would she? Now i know it is to prove she can but more on that later...

I was left feeling hurt and worthless and the worst thing i did was let it go, i said nothing and carried on like nothing had hapened. Even though in the back of my mind there was an elephant.

Then for the next few weeks i kept getting the cold shoulder, the shrug off and THE LIES about where they both were. I got told that they were busy tonight which i soon found out to be secret meetings, even when i knew and talked to them both my best friend came back to me saying don't just blame me and the boy was angry because i was upset i dnt understand what they want from mee.

All i got from then on was lies from both of them and i just felt worthless and like a doormatt. My best friend and me aren't friends anymore i can't handle being lied to on a daily basis. The boy i speak to occasionally but i can't trust him.

I lost one of the MOST important people in my life this year...i think it would be a fair comment to say that i hope this year gets better in the next feww weeks or i am not hopeful for the future.......